What do you want to be when you grow up?
I’ve never known the answer to that question. More and more, people have been telling me that I’m nearing the age when I’m supposed to know what I want. I’ve always found this very difficult.
But, truth is, I’ve known what I really want to be doing for some time. At least, art-wise. I’ve just been too damn scared to admit it.
My general, profession independent goal is this: I want to work for people who make a difference. That’s always been my goal, it’s my goal in my current job, it’s the reason I work for the company I work for now. The people in my company want to make a difference to someone. I’m the kind of person who would love to help them make a difference. I’m not great with leadership, but I have passion, and I know perseverance like no other.
But there’s something else:
I never really knew I wanted to be an artist, not until I was in my third year of Communication and Multimedia Design studies. Suddenly, at the age of 19, I discovered a whole new talent I never knew I had: digital painting. But I wanted to go and get a job in the New Media industry. I wanted to tell stories, I wanted to connect (with) people. I still do.
But I’ve also found that art is only passion in my life that makes me feel absolutely free. Nothing about art is in any way influenced by the fact that I have a physical disability. I’m not slower, I don’t feel like I’m starting at minus one, which I do for everything else in my life.
Is it impossible to focus on two things at once? I believe not. I’m a woman after all. I’m allowed to multitask.
If you take a look at my portfolio, you’ll see a lot of celebrity portraits. Why? Because I love movies, I see these people on a screen every single day, and like me, they are practicing an art and do something creative. They tell stories, true or not, and I admire them for that. And sometimes, I just really like their faces.
So yes, when I grow up, I want to work for a film studio and make pretty pretty art for them. A little far fetched? Maybe. But it doesn’t hurt to dream. Fox, Disney, Paramount, Warner Bros, Sony, Universal, if you’re listening…